Currently listening to: You Lifted me Out, Chris Tomlin
Changed to: God of this City, Chris Tomlin.
So um yeah I'm jamming to Chris Tomlin's Hello Love. Not like anyone besides Aliison cares :P
Erg. I've been so like I don't know. Like emotional. Not EMO. Emotional. Many emotions. I think it has to do with my brother. He lives 10 minutes away, yet os much has changed. But it's so much better than people who have to stay millions of miles away form eachother. Or say goodbye forever. Erg. And my mom has been weird lately too. Because it;s around the time 6 years ago she slipped on ice and messed up her back which has led to oh so much more. And the anniversary of my Aunt Amanda's death, of brain cancer, is today too. I really wish I could have met her. I did, but I was two when she died. Why couldn't we have memories that young? My Uncle Duane... who died when he was 18, I never met him. Everyone says he said he remembered BEING born. Is that possible? Hmm. I wish I knew him too. All the great people that could be in my life died before I turned 8. I still have family at least. I just am sick of their drama and self absorbed-ness. (Currently listening to: I Will Rise) Erg. And one of my best friends might have to go to a catholic school in New York next year. Which is cool, but I'm just selfish and don't want her to go. I'll see her on weekends, but it's just the fact that she's not there. Or that I'm not there for her physically. I'm just scared we'll grow apart. I'm sick of growing apart from great people in my life. I wish my life would kind of stay the same it is right now. Yet at the same time I wish it wouldn't. I don't know. It's not like she's my only friend. And maybe even being separated can make us closer. As long as it's for the best. Merg. I guess that's all for now. I've already blogged twice today and all.
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