I want youu.... I want you so baaad

Across the Universe<3 :]

Okay. So I hate feeling left out. PS, I'm not studying. Most of the time little things don't bother me, but just recently I've just been sensitive and arg. So yeah. Yup. And I hate not knowing things. I don't cross the line, but like it bothers me if someone tells someone something, and they can't tell me. It's like they can't trust me. Which I understand, say, if someone told someone who they liked, that they wouldn't want to go around telling everyone, but it's bleh when you think they would be like the first person to tell when you liked someone. Oh well, I don't care.
Hum. I have to think about more things to write about rather than just my boring life. I want to be able to talk about intense intelectual things. Maybe some day that will happen. I wish I could write better too. I am a good writer, it's just, like in blogging, all I do is write what happens, instead of being creative and such. I also wish I could fly, not be afraid to grow up slash fall in love, and no one should have to be paranoid about anything in the world because everyone and everything is perfect. But everyone can't be perfect, they just think they're suppose to pretend to be perfect because they think maybe that will make them, in actuality, perfect. Pretending won't make anything better. And I don't like people who are fake. Or pretend to be tough, or are mean to people. Because no one is perfect and the fact is if you're giving someone a hard time it's only to make yourself feel better. And like I said, that won't make anything better.

I searched the truth, but all I found was You. My God, I'll only ever give me all -Hillsong:]

Lalalala. Delay this morning. The schools should have just been closed or something. The roads were still really icy, AND it messed up the midterms schedule, making it 90 minutes longer until the actual school day was over. It didn't really affect me, because I have 4th period study, but I would have enjoyed another day of no school :P My eye is progressively getting better slash worse. It's like getting greenish yellowish and like spreading a little more, but that means it's healing which I guess is good. So this afternoon, my mom and my dad had to take my mom to like a doctor or something, and since my brother's moved out, I was, and still am, home alone. I rarely get to be home alone because both of my parents don't work, and my sister comes home like 30 minutes after me. So I never get like any time ever to just like be alone with out my sister annoying me. Although I feel bad because I never do anything with her and I'm on the computer. Any who. Buddy, our puppy, wouldn't stop barking and crying after they left. And once I got him to come near me and not be sad he would start attacking me and barking and biting. So I put him in his crate. And he calmed down. But then I walked by and he started freaking out and I felt bad so I let him out. Then he slept. Then he woke up. And now he's sleeping again. I hope you all enjoyed that story :P Basically all I've been doing since like 11 this morning is on the computer and such. Saaaaad. But I got to facebook chat shortly with two counselors from Keswick whom I love, so I'm glad. Lalala. Okay, well I have spanish midterm tomorrow, which I will probably so bad >.< style="font-style: italic;">so bad. I'm off to study.

It's a love story, baby just say yes

Lalalala. I really want to blog again. But I don't know what to say. I'm kinda of mad right now because my parents always get mad whenever I use their laptops (which is all the time) because apparently I "mess up the computers" At first they blamed it on AIM. So then my dad uninstalled it, also the make more memory because they're both low. So I've been using meebo since my own laptop broke. And yet there are still some problems. But its really just slow. And my dad thinks it only happens after he uses it after me. So I'm just getting really mad because what the heck am I suppose to do, never go on a computer ever again in my life? I'm on another computer. which my sister claims is HERS whenever I use it, but only wants to use it when I do. I guess my family has a lot of computers. We really only use my mom and dad's laptops though. Erg. I'm mostly just mad at my self for knocking over that cup or a LITTLE water onto my computer :P And what pisses me off more is that if I had actually shut it off, which I usually did every night, AND closed it, instead of leaving it open and still on, The "mother load" (I don't know if that's the technical term...) would have been fine. But no. Now I'm just stupid and can't even like go on computers now. I wish I had money to get a new laptop. Because It costs more to fix it than the computer actually costs. Agh. Maybe I could get a new one for my birthday, but I would probably still have to pay for some. I guess my idea of getting a new, cool phone is gone if I'm planning on getting a new laptop >.< Hi my name is Megan and I'm acting like a spoiled brat. Some people don't even have a computer, let alone like 4 in their house. And some people will never be able to get a computer of their own in their life time. Even some people can't go to school... >;[ I'm usually grateful for what I have but I'm just being stupid :P Plus we don't even have any money for a new one, or like anything. Well then my parents just have to deal with my "ruining" their computers. Alright. Thanks for reading my obnoxious post.

Dear Prudence, open up your eyes Dear Prudence, see the sunny skies. The wind is low, the birds will sing That you are part of everything.

I'm watching Across The Universe. I am the egg man, i am the egg man, i am the walrus, koo koo ka choo koo koo ka choo! Lalala Yep I love this movie. I watched it a while ago but I wasn't really paying attention, but I still liked it. Then my sister or my brother, I forget, gave it to me for Christmas. I haven't gotten around to watching it until now. Perfect timing because its a snow day :] There was already like frozen snow on the ground left over from the last dandruff fall :P So now it will be like snow on snow action :P And it's suppose ot like sleet and rain later so I'm guessing ice is headed down the road today. Ok it's getting to the weird part, like the carnival man and the blue things... the guy is weird. Haha ok well ima go for now. Have an excellent snow day and good luck on midterms once again :D

You ain't seen nothin yet DUN DUN B-b-b-baby

Ahhh first day of midterms done. Biology was wicked easy. I don't know how I did on Music Appreciation though, but I think I did fairly well. I woke up this morning and my eye wasn't swollen shut, but there's a nice bruise. You can't really see it unless I close my eye, which I guess is good. Except it just arg, annoying. And it's actually starting to hurt more, rather than just being annoying. Well this recovery will probably take a while >.< Agh I can't wait for the bruise to turn a nice array of colors... yeah, no. So um yeah. I kinda want a snow day tomorrow, and I believe it is very possible because it's suppose to snow all night and day and like start sleeting and raining and such which is bad for driving, hence there is most likely a snow day tomorrow. But I won't be stupid and not study for Geometry (my midterm tomorrow) and then have it end up not being a snow day and not being prepared and so forth. But I don't wanna take it tomorrow because I get confused from things a couple months ago. Because I forget they exist. And then I mess up the problem. But I'm sure I'll do fine. Good luck everyone :]

PS Does anyone know anyone w/ culinary 7th period?

Follow mee, everything is alright, I'll be the one to tuck you in at night...

So. Today in gym, we had to play handball. Since all the guys are ball hogs, and girl never get to participate and make it look like we're just standing there, my teacher decided to make the guys not play after like 15 minutes. So I tried getting into it, at least it looking like I was actually trying. So the ball flew towards the goalie, but they blocked it. Then it was coming towards my area, so I was going to like reach in a get it, because I couldn't go in the crease. As I'm going in to grab the ball, another girl was whamming her hand at the ball to get it away from me and my teammates. After her hand hits the ball away, her arm follows through and whacks me in the face. I could feel my whole right side of my face swelling up and it started feeling numb. My eye was like leaking, but it looked like I was crying because there were like tears streaming down that side of my face with no control. Everyone was like seeing if I was okay and I kinda didn't understand how much impact her hand would have on me. Apparently my face was bleeding too. Right under my eye brow, like the size of a penny maybe. So anyways I went to the nurse and iced it and such but I knew it was still swollen. Had to go to class anyway. With a swollen eye with an added touch of a battle wound under my eye. Bleh. My mom thinks it might get swollen shut tomorrow morning >.<>.< ... I hope this ugliness heals soon :]

Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song, And I'll try not to sing out of key. Oh I get by with a little help from my friends -The Beatles.

I've been thinking a lot about friends lately. I'm so glad to have the friends I have today because they're always there to make me laugh, make me feel better, and an added bonus is that they're not into sex and drugs and partying. None of which I'm interested in. And if I was friends with people like that I would probably be pressured to join them, even though I really don't want to do that stuff. So I'm glad I don't have friends like that. I've also been thinking about my past friends. Whether its preschool or last year, I've gone through my share of friends. We either aren't friends because we just grew apart, or a stupid fight that broke us apart, at some point they were a huge part of my life. Some of them I wish I could just talk to again and we could reunite and start all over. Some I'm glad I'm not friends with. Like in fourth grade I had two "best friends" which I later found out they thought I was annoying and I wasn't actually their friend.. OKAYY. Whether my friendships ended on a bad note or not, I'd like to somehow thank each and everyone because they made an impact on me somehow. Either I learned from their mistakes or looked up to them and their actions. Some times I just want to go up to my ex-friends and slap them in the face if they're being stupid, because that's what they need. Or give them a hug because they are in need of either a hug or a friend. Or just talk to them to remind them of good times. I don't know. I liked being little like in kindergarten when the only reason you didn't like someone was because they took your crayon without asking, or like a grudge still being held on my someone in my class to someone else, stealing their swing at recess. True story :P And I'd like the thank all my friends now for always being there for me and just being great friends. If we ever, for some reason, grow apart of stop being friends, just know I appreciate you :] Ever since New Years I wanted to write a thanks to all my friends after reflecting over the year. Some day I'll get to that :] And it makes me angry how some people have clear as day relationships that aren't working and should just let it go so they can get better friends. Or stop dealing with them. Because some people just aren't meant to be friends. Now I'm thinking about the popular girls. Half of them hate each other yet act like best friends, why? Very frustrating. Everyone should be themselves and hang around people they actually like.

Here we are, broken, and bruised, mistreated, abused, here we are...

So many things are bothering me lately. There's midterms, which really shouldn't be as big of a deal as everyone, or I, make it. My brother's moving out into the dorm at school, which will be a pretty big change. New schedules next semester >.< (I like mine right now!:[ ) One of my best friends seems to not really care about anymore. I mean, she does. But just these little things are bothering me now because I see her quite frequently this semester and I know next semester our seeing each other schedules are involving not seeing each other ever. Like after history(we're in different classes) we walk to our next class together, but for the past couple weeks she's been leaving before I can get to her class and just keeps walking with her other friend until I have to run to go catch up to her and she doesn't even care that she forgot about me. And I don't know. More stupid reasons. But they're adding up and making me paranoid she doesn't need to depend on me as much any more. I just want to spend as much time together in school as we can until weekends are our only choice. And she's been spending the past couple weekends (Friday to Sunday) with her friend who I'm also close with. And I want all three of us to hang out for a while, and I would think when they're hanging out maybe it would be a good way for all three of us to hang out? But I guess not. They have every right to hang out, and I'm not jealous, it's just the situation that we can hang out and they don't really wanna hang out. But I'm just being stupid. It's not a big deal. But writing things out make me feel better. Ahhh now I feel a little better. Except guys are still stupid and people still enjoy fighting. Good luck on midterms and have a good rest of the weekend

Bermuda, Bahamas, come on pretty mamas

Lalala. So basically its the time of year where everyone's fighting or having guy problems. I don't know if it's the weather or the midterms that are basically already here, but I don't like it. No one should be stressing because the teachers are giving you everything you need to know, which you've ALREADY learned. And everyone should stop being jerks. Referring to the dumb guys again. Two entertaining situations that could easily be going out right now, but not. Things need to be difficult. Because if everything was just handed to you, you wouldn't ever learn, and what the fun in that. Although some situations really suck I'm really grateful that they happen because they help with something else later down the road. Sometimes I wish something earlier HAD happened, so that if something was going on right now, would already know how to handle it. I guess that's a good way to think, positively, because if you're always Negative Nancy, nothing is going to get better. Because you'll only see the negative in things, which will keep bringing you lower and lower and lower. It kinda works for me, sometimes I test it. I'll be really tired in the morning, an abnormal amount than usual, and I'll just keep noticing things that are making it a bad morning which will lead to a bad day. Except if I catch myself, and pretend like I have energy, and everything's going good, I can tend to fell more awake and happy. I don't know if it's just me, but try it.

Thinking positively also helps your brain.

Oh, in caaaaase you care, spanish listening section- majorly easy, surprising because I usually always get listening section wrong
History- I think id fairly well, but most of the test was on beginning stuff that I didn't really study. Still proud of myself. Except that DBQ will be another story.... UP!... THAT DBQ WILL BE THE BEST DARN THING I EVER WROTE!

Have a good positive weekend :]

Did it hurt? When you fell from heaven?

I love cheesy pick up lines. My favorite: Do you know karate? CAUSE YO BODIES KICKIN. Haha I'm so glad I'm not a guy and have to search pick up lines :] Ahh I've been thinking about guys and such and I've decided I just need to let myself like someone because I guess I've just been to scared to do that. I don't know why, I'm just weird. The fact that 2 of my friends are currently having obnoxious guy troubles, doesn't make me want to like stupid guys and deal with more drama. Hi, I'm not a lesbian, I just get mad at guys for being stupid. I always find something wrong with every guy. IT must be some sort of super power. Oh, I can fly too. Any ways. Dear Not Nice Of A Guy To Not Go After What You Want and What is Clearly Available, and Boy Who Likes His Best Friend: IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE AND YOU BOTH KNOW YOU LIKE EACH OTHER, GO OUT AND DON'T MISS YOUR CHANCE BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT GOING TO WAIT FOREVER. STOP BEING A WOMAAAN. Okay. I'm done.

Yay Midterms are next week. I'm uber excited I just wait for this the whole year. Having to review stuff you didn't care about months ago, and trying to remember it in order to pass the exam. (Sarcasm.) Everyone shouldn't freak out as much though. Especially if you're doing good in the class, taking a test about everything you did that year shouldn't be hard. It's just annoying to have to be crammed with review after review after review. But at least we have review, it would totally suck if you didn't review. I have to take my history multiple choice part, and my spanish listening section tomorrow. Both of which I guess I don't have to worry about. Although I always do horrible on listening sections in spanish. But I think I kinda know the criteria pretty well... maybe... I guess... :] I haven't been feeling good lately. I haven't been getting enough sleep. Yesterday I was taking nap, my dog threw up, my whole family was freaking out, my mom with an extremely sensitive gag reflex was gagging for 2 minutes. So I've been feeling like I'm going to puke all day. It just was gross. And I keep thinking about it. But whatever. Sorry for grossing those of you out :]

Good luck on Midterms and don't freak out!

Wow. It's been a long time..

I'm sincerely ashamed of myself for not blogging since Christmas Eve. My Christmas was good, my New Year's Eve was amazingly fun with 3 of my best friends. I did basically nothing over break, which I guess is good. Coming back to school after the break was so tiering and not fun. Then last week I had a cold and it was really annoying and made me wicked tired. And of course like every night I went to bed after 11, rather then going to bed early and actually getting enough sleep. But I've been feelin better. And last night I went to my friend Stephanie's 16 brithday party sleepover, which was really fun. We watched Chuck and Larry, of course. Wow I love that movie. And Eagle Eye which I've seen before and I love it :] And for only getting like 5 hours of sleep (because for like an hour everyone was yelling at Nikki to shut up) and everyone kinda woke up around like 8:30 but some were still trying to sleep, and of course Nikki had to notice it was snowing outside and like yell and make a big deal out of it :P She's a crazy fellow but you gotta love her :] I'm excited to having Martin Luther King Jr. Day off tomorrow, because I just like days off :] So I guess that's the past couple weeks in a nutshell. Tata for now.