Grumpy muffin, but watching Mitchell Davis makes me happy.

Livelavalive -Look it up on youtube. He cheers me up :]


Ugh so I came home from Bigbrother/bigsister and just like flipped on my family. I don't know what's wrong with me, like seriously, I never flip out but lately I've been so pissy and tired. I've been tired for wayy too long and I think it's jsut catching up. I can't even stand ot be around my family anymore, it's just to stressful for me. Because I MAKE it stressful. I love my family, I want to be around them, but I'm just the bitch now so I can't be normal around them anymore. I need sleep. SO bad. I can't remeber, honestly, the last time I've slept and actually felt like I SLEPT. In months, I don't even know how long. UGH I can't wait until Spring break. I need that break SO much. Except right now I'm getting like mad because my stupid sister will probably wake up every freaking day at like 8 in the freaking morning and go around yelling and screaming and stomping around the house because she doesn't want to be up alone. DON'T WAKE UP THEN. MRAWRRRR.
Even just like TODAY I've been such a pissed off person. Everyone is bothering me so unbelievable much, not my firends... guys in particular. They're so freaking annoying and immature and they should go live on a stranded island until they learn to act like a normal human being for once. I even swore a couple times today. I haven't swore (unless I was REALLY pissed, or I needed to scream for a good reason (like my brother being a buttface(that's me trying not to swear.)) in a couple months. And I just swore today like it was nothing. I didn't even feel weird or bad about it until now. I'm turning into someone I don't know who I am or why I'm doing these things. It sounds weird but really, I'm not acting like myself lately, and they're frankly little things that are nbd, but it's kinda weird... :[
I don't know. I just feel like I'm losing my grip on God, kinda. I think it was partly because Keswick is like going down the drain. That place is so unbelievable awesome, I just can't explain it. Really. Everytime I'm driving up, once I start seeing those signs "Keswick 3 miles--->" "Keswick 1 mile --->" on that long dirt road, it's like butterflies, like you get with a guy :P Haha ugh I'll explain my love for it later... :D