Feel you when I'm restless Feel you when I cannot cope You're my addiction, my prescription, my antidote

YAY ITS SPRING BREAK! WOOOHOOOOOO! I'm so pumped. I really wanna be able to hang out with a lot of people, visit some family, go to Six Flags, my mom wants to go to the Bronx Zoo, but probably not much of that will happen, but I'm just happy for now school :D I should have gone to bed early so I could go to bed early AND sleep late. Ugh if my sister wakes me up early I'll will be so pissed. Like it will be hard to forgive her :P. So tomorrow there's another youth group thing, it should be fun, but the guy who "hated" me might be going again, and idk if it will be more awkward because they've been um like mackin' it and such >.> but Alex is going so I have her to be awkward with... lol. Humph. I kinda wanna like someone and then have it work out and have a boy friend and know what love is. And it should last forever because I'm so scared to get my heart broken, I think that's why it's so hard for me to like someone or anything because my feelings for them can be so strong that I won't want anything to change between them. With like 4 friends they all liked someone and they either did like them, but ended up not later, and ugh idk it's just sad because at some point or another you'll be led on and everyone will think that guy is really into you (like I thought I know about K and A.) obviously that didn't happen :[ But it really just is one of those things that you'll never know how to handle if you don't go through it, like a lot of things in life. Hummm. Well. It has to happen to me at some point. But the thing is, with me I just don't want to have a *crush* on someone that I don't completely like or don't want to like pursue sometihng further, but then again, I don't *want* a boyfriend right now. But I guess if I had a guy thang going on I would feel differently. Well. I should go to bed soon. Have an amazing Spring Break and Easter and everything!!

PS. Those of you who hated how I wouldn't read Twilight, good news... I'm going to start reading it tomorrow or very soon! Those of you who I will be abandoning on the light side (Allison) I love you and don't hate me :PP